i'm thinking
of this change that i'm facing
no longer one and only
but at long last
having my one and only
i used to think that i'll be alone
for the longest time
just me alone
work and family
fulfilling days with friends perhaps
and my books definitely
and without a partner in crime
but now i found myself
a man so good hearted
who cares a lot about me
that i cant bear to hurt him
and so i'm no longer alone
so now its 3 weekends away
from our vows of marriage
and i'm wondering if i'm ready
to leave a life of alone
to a life of company
to leave a life of 7 crowd
to a life of peaceful 2
i will miss my room
my mattress, my bronze fan,
my ikea side table, my bookshelf of books
i will miss my travels alone
my zen mp3 accompanying me
i will miss my sisters
their laughters and shouts
our arguments and our hugs
i will miss my brothers
their teasing and craps
i will miss my father
his silence and patience
i will miss my mother
her nags and moodswings
i will miss that all these happen
under one roof within four walls of this house
and i'm moving leaving
no more of my footsteps and my voice
but i'm moving and praying
that i can be as Khadijah r.a
a wife loyal and true
that i can serve my husband
with love and care
sincere and patient
intelligent and dilligent
with all my heart
Lord, please guide me
through this change
