L.E.A.R.N

so i've been to a two day course, in any case, always after a course, you'll feel happier with work and you learn so many things you just cant wait to implement and practice it. im definitely feeling that now and i do not want to lose that momentum.

i have all these ideas in my head i need to write it down and make a strategy out of it lest i forget. and its big, and i need people who believe in it.

so i'm a Fish! practice and also sharpening the saw from the 7habits by taking up this Fish! philosophy.

week one is to make a jouornal of things which i have been grateful of, and take into consideration things which i might have been taking things for granted.

it is still monday and i have a week to think it through. so despite my busy work schedule, i'm going to try it. will be blogging about it here or my other blog. whichever suits the mood and mode of writing ok!

have a good night, world!

prayers for japan. despite whatever smart remarks people are making out of the calamity in japan, i will say, yes it happened. not karma, not test because of their whatever they did in the past, it just happened because God has created the world in such a way that an earthquake and tsunami will happen at this time and day and will hit japan. let's not make sour comments or snide remarks. i sympathise with japan and if i cannot be there to help, i will be here, donate whenever i can, at whichever opportunity, and pray for more hard years to come to rebuild a nation.

Fish! Tales

work. and i am constantly trying to improve myself work wise. and i'm on this motivation and i hope it builds up and well, just improve myself.

I've been getting headaches at work and facing problems, ok, let's put it in a positive note, challenges. very draining challenges that puts me down and makes me just want to stop. i feel i dont have the mood to work and blame it on the walk from the nel station to the mosque. and i'm just on a roll, just going through it without really knowing what i'm doing.

and i am still in that limbo. running a school takes a lot. teachers, parents, systems, mosque systems, administrative issues, financial issues, and most important of all, the curriculum and the students. can you just imagine what i have to go through everyday, without people breathing on my neck and telling me what to do. as i'm listing this down, i feel a huge weight on my shoulders and it just got heavier.

and i'm a temperamental person, my mood controls me sometimes and it may affected me a lot, my work, the place i work in and the impression i'm giving to total strangers.

and beside my ever patient and listening husband, i wouldnt know how and where to vent it out, since i'm just a normal quiet person and hold everything inside. my social life is pretty normal and nothing exciting. i'm not a conversationalist. i depended on my friends to make things happened and i just chip in whenever i can.

so i thought if i'm going to give myself one more year in this job, i have to do something and makes it worthwhile. two months gone and i think i'm just doing enough but not better.

maybe i'm born to be a serious person, have always been but i just thought i had to take things seriously or work wont get done.

i was introduced to Fish! philosophy by one of my mentor, she lent me a book to read and hoped i could learn something from it. well that was three four years ago? i soon forgot what i read. until last year i passed a small book sale at the interchange and i saw this book, and i thought i used to love this book and i need to read it again! i bought it. but it was kept in my bookshelf for a whole year.

bought many other books but didnt get to read them with the reason of being busy with work. i'm starting to hate the word work.

but i realise i have to start somewhere now. i'm giving myself one year and i need to do it right now.

i'm going to start on this book, and maybe build up the momentum from there. learn what i can learn and implement what i can.

thank you to my mentor for introducing me to this.

10 habits of highy effective muslim wife

i really like this article. a very good reminder to myself.

http://muslimworker.com/2009/07/10-habits-of-highly-effective-muslim-wives/

12 Rabiul awal

Sollu alaih
Muhammad Khairu Khalqillah
Sollu ala rasulillah habibil mustafa
solatullah salamullah ala taha rasulillah
solatullah salamullah ala yasin habibillah

i have no words to describe you ya Rasulullah
So many alim have written about you
written so beautiful of you
so many of them have sung about you
so many have sollu alaika

i am but imperfect imperfect
but i pray that i may still be in your embrace
ya Rasulullah
i pray that i may be among those you love and miss
i pray that i may still be able to catch a glimpse of you
ya Rasulullah

ya Allah
please forgive me
my life is a struggle
and only You would understand

please guide me Ya Allah
please look at me Ya Rasulullah

11 Rabiul awal

no i have not forgotten you. the greatest teacher. i should have learnt from you ya Rasulullah. Sollu alaik...

7 Rabiul awal

a book. a legacy of my alma mater, i will hold on to it for ever if i can help it as it reminds me of the person i was shaped to be and am.

6 Rabiul awal

back in the 90s, there was a surge of interest in nasyid groups across the causeway. Raihan was the pioneer who managed to bring out nasyid and selawat into the radios and touched the hearts of many Muslims, of all ages. the children loved them, the adults loved them.

Raihan is one of the 'originals' and a fave of mine. Raihan has since performed many concerts and internationally. Barakallahu fikum.

5 Rabiul awal

i remember among the first selawat which was sung to me when i was a child by my mother and later in kindergarten was this nasyid Tala'al Badru Alayna. the older version which is imprinted in this mind and have loved it since.
Sheikh Mishary's version sounds more mysterious yet emotional and love the video...definitely attract the younger viewers now.





i miss this feeling of longing and love to you Ya Rasulullah. please bring me back to your love.

4 Rabiulawal

i stumbled upon maher zain while searching for some worthy videos i could show to my students last year and i feel in love with his song Always be There. it has been on repeat mode for quite some time in my classes last year to fill up the silence when students are doing groupworks or the sign of calm when class gets too rowdy.

my students love maher zain.

ala kulli hal...in remembrance of the Prophet, this is one of my favourite selawat/songs.

3 Rabiul Awal

i miss the maulids we had, back in school, my beloved Madrasah Al-Maarif. it has been a tradition throughout the years, for us girls to have the maulid every year to celebrate the Prophet's birthday and it has been one of the best memories of my school years. i never wanted to miss any of the maulid.

i miss the voices of my ustazahs who had such great voice reciting the maulids. i miss the togetherness that binded us students. it's the beauty of it.

oh well, i hope to attend one this month. insya Allah. if only the mosque i'm working invites the asatizah who can lead selawat and zikir. i have no idea why they dont and what's wrong with having it? why cant it be a culture of the mosque?

despite the numerous videos out there in youtube, i have always loved the Qasidah Burdah.

remembrance

its the birth month of the Prophet. and i have a project to remember him.

cry + smile + ok = strength?

i was disturbed by this so called quote.

my response:

in the beginning

in the beginning
i thought i was going to be a job hopper for after my temporary contract finishes with, what i think the best, job i will ever had, i will be at a lost of what exactly i wanted to do.

i started out being an assistant doing very administrative works, just helping here and there when needed, and then they gave me some 'real' work to do and my organizing skills kicked in. time flies very fast, they gave me tasks or projects to handle, although one i thought i did not do my best, maybe not my forte.

being a net citizen, into social networks and all, i've always been an introvert person and physically or virtually, i cant bring myself to be an outgoing person. and thus, the failure in it. but i am proud i was given an opportunity to meet with many people in the media world and those who have vision and mission in da'wah through media. well, i've always known my da'wah is not that.

my da'wah is this. education. it was an impromptu decision but if reading The Alchemist ever taught me, it's that the whole universe works towards a destiny. (heck, i should not be quoting from authors, i should be quoting from the Prophet or the Sahabats or the alims!!)

i guess there are few people i should be thankful for, playing a part in making me who i am today. of course, it was never a smooth journey. never. more hard times than happier ones but i'll let myself persevere, for surely these hard works will not go unworthy. these difficult times are a phase which, upon reflection, i have to face. because, as i've always reminded my students, a challenge or obstacle is upon us not to degrade us, but really, we are chosen to face it because the Lord knows we can handle it, we can overcome it in victor. if not in the eyes of human, well, Lord knows everything.

la taziru waziratan wizra ukhra.