you know I was thinking...
it's the new Islamic year. Think about it, it's only 1428 years ago that our beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW was perfectly breathing and alive. walking on this earth spreading the Words of ALLAH. it seems short yet so long ago. GREAT MAN. Praise be upon him.
It's how we always forget this simple things and be complacent with the life we're living. That we forget our task. It's like looking at other people and just thinking: Do they know what they're doing?? do they know why they are even living?? Do I know why I'm living?
Sometimes i'm looking at people and thinking that they're doing what they're doing because they think they need to fulfill the rules of life, materialistic, hedonistic, utilitarianistic, idealistic. we do because we have to be on par, to be on the same status with ithers. I feel like a hypocrite but what guarantees that I'm unlike them?? I could be worst than them? looking at the students at the place i'mstudying...what are they thinking? bearing an Islamic education to their name, when they grad, what are they going to do? do they think that it's even important to realise that they have an 'islamic' background? what is this identity that we're upholding?? we're just lost.
and me? what have i done? is my knowledge good enough to be a spokesperson of my religion? seriously, i don't think i'm good enough. there's still just too much that i have not learnt!! and I feel like i'm running out of time. i haven't been reading enough. i haven't been doing well. So help me Lord.
time will tell we say, but i say... time is most unpredictable, it doesn't tell, it reminds.
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